A Decade Ago

It is something that when I was in high school

I won my first poetry award on this month in 2005.

This happened for three years in a row.

I was the Executive’s Choice for three years in a row.

Poetry.com thought a lot of three of my poems.

Still I earned nothing from my poetry,

yet I saw that my poems were good enough to make it.

So after the whole fall out with Poetry.com

I branched out on my own and tried to start my own business

and eventually I plan to make it all work out someday.

 

I do recall that my first ever poem was titled “The Peace Prayer”

which I unfortunately lost sometime ago,

yet before that I managed to read it to people at the Youth Group

and read it to my mom who is a poet herself

and she thought that it was good.

So after that experience and seeing that Johnny Cash himself

won a Poetry.com award I was ready to try it for myself

to see what I could achieve if I worked on my poetry a little bit more.

So I published to them and I won a award within a short period of time.

I was thrilled because it was my first award not of the Christian Academy.

I knew what it was like to win awards,

yet this was so different for me.

I was like so in the sky,cloud nine.

I was so overjoyed.

I was no arrogant.yet so overjoyed at the time.

It is something winning awards for doing good in school,

yet it is a totally different thing to win awards for your own work.

 

If you ever win a award outside of school let the feelings come.

You do deserve it.

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I only like certain women and I know who I want as my own

I am serious on this one.

I like to be with someone like myself.

Someone that plays music like myself.

I am so done with being interested in women

that my so called friends introduce me to.

I am so done with being interested in women

who follow me around in places.

I am so done with being interested in women

who I meet on damn old dating sites and sleazy websites.

One time that I worked at Walmart

I left my section and I saw three women looking for me

that I did not know so I avoided the section for a while

and when they all three left I returned to my section.

I do still love the same women that I loved back then

and she was the same reason that I did avoid them evil women.

Why did I quit going to the Youth Group in 2004?

I have to be honest with everyone.

It drove me to near lunacy a.k.a. insanity

so I went into town and sought a counselor

who I learned was a psychologist

and I explained to them about my struggles with demons

and they just brushed it off as chemical imbalances in the brain.

So I shortly afterwards left more discouraged than before.

My dad was determined to get me right in the head

so he got me more into women again and less into religion

so from November to December I skipped school

and I was more interested in stuff that would help me

rather than what it would benefit the minister’s pockets.

I hated having to tithe which I considered ludicris.

I learned from my dad that ministry members make the ministers rich

which I did resent.

I actually was not even interested in going back to the Youth Group

till a old friend keep pushing me to go back because he was mad about it,

yet another reason that I did go back and that was late 2005

or maybe mid 2006 was to see if it was even worth it and I was disappointed.

No Ashley at all,just Ronnie and the usual’s,yet less and less.

I was more and more resentful of even being there.

I went one time to do tag football because I love the sport,

yet after being gone for so long,the thrill was gone.

In November 2004 I was going nearly lunacy or insane

because of the Youth Group and the whole going to ministry

every day for nearly a year and that was too much on me.

When I did notice that Ashley was not there

I was like why should I even show up

because she did mean so much to me then.

We would call each other on a regular basis in December of 2004.

For quite a while I missed her,yet I got sick of it all.

I really began to hate school

and the need to go to Chapel every damn Wednesday

so a Wednesday during the last month of school I decided to skip Chapel

and lament on what I lost because of those damn demons

who had caused me to go insane.

They know who they are and if God allows I will avenge them all ruthlessly.

 

Let me take a few steps back and discuss why I resented going back so much.

The Youth Group would not defend me once

when I went to the altar to pray and came back to see

that the pictures that I had planned to give to the person that I took them with

were torn to pieces and whoever did it,I was mad at and not lightly either,livid.

The Youth Pastor who is supposedly to be like a saint

was a coward and would not reprimend them who did it.

I started to hate the Youth Pastor because of it.

After Ashley quit going to the Youth Group

and my mental issues I quit the Youth Group.

 

After 2006 came in I started my own religion,Peace Science

which worked for a while,yet not enough

so I studied Quantum Physics which lead me back to Christianity,

yet this time no ministry to mess my thinking up

and no random people to tempt me while I am trying to do right.

For a while everything seemed right in the world,

friends would come by and hang out,

we would go to the pool haul and shoot pool

and I would do the same,yet eventually they let me down

so that was done.

 

I then decided to let friends go and be a loner.

So for this long I have been a loner

and it is not bad,yet lonely,not bad,even though at times I’m all alone

and regardless of that it is better to be alone

than it is to hang with cowards or jerks who may betray you.

Where Have I Been Lately?On The Go Really!

I have been back to working on songs again.

I have wrote some new songs that I plan to

record,mix,produce and put on a all new blog someday in the future.

This blog is fun,yet I may have to take some time off from it again

because I am gonna go back into my studio and record again.

I do miss the music so much,yet I never really stopped doing it.

I will post some brand new posts really soon.

Still I am gonna create a fresh blog site on the internet

and on it you can listen to some free music of mine.

Do not copy it though because if I ever get famous

I may give y’all a behind the scenes of my songs.

Thank you all for being loyal to me for nearly a year.

Is The Big Bang Theory based on The Chaos Theory of Greek Mythology?

I did some research and you can too.

Just go and look up the Chaos origin of everything in Greek Mythology

and the story goes that everything was squeezed into a tight point

and then erupted and everything was.

That sounds very similar to the Big Bang Theory to me.

They may be the same story.

Chaos is just how the Greeks viewed the origin of us all.

To me Greeks Atheists may be today’s Scientific Atheists.

Who Is The Best Beatle In Y’all’s Opinion?

After The Beatles broke up,

they all went their separate ways having separate careers.

I like Paul the best out of them,yet everybody likes different music.

John Lennon was not bad,yet he was not great.

Looking at their four careers Paul and Ringo has the longest ones.

I did like George Harrison also more than I did John Lennon musically,

yet that is another preference of mine.

How the Beatles became the band name is bizarre,

John Lennon had a vision of a man

that appeared in a flaming pie

and it told him to name his band Beetles,yet with A.

Him and the Beatles told him,Thank You.

That was John Lennon’s response to

why the band’s name is The Beatles.

So that is why the band is The Beatles and not The Beetles.

Actually when I first heard of them I thought they were

doing music about insects a.k.a. beetles.

Kinda like the tv show Big Ban Beetle Borgs.

Yes,that is a strange association,yet that is how I viewed them originally.

I have no clue why except the name.

I originally never knew them,just their songs from movies and videos.

I heard Can’t Buy Me Love in the movie of the same name.

The first time I ever saw John Lennon

Ray Stevens video Surfin’ USSR

and the time I did not know what USSR

as I did know who that man was either.

Actually the first time I remember hearing about them

was when their #1’s album was being promoted on commercials

and that was back in 2002,2003 or 2004,not sure when,yet it was years ago.

I was like,who are they?

They did not appeal to me,yet after seeing how my friend liked them in 2007

I chose to buy their albums and so I did,which I ended up throwing away.

I did keep Paul McCartney and Wings Hits and History album which is a gem,

yet to me Paul McCartney could have succeeded on his own if he wanted to.

His music with Wings was great.

The Beatles were too influenced by drugs and too persuasive if you ask me.

People in high school tempted me

with drugs and tobacco both which I turned down.

I never went to any parties where people got drunk,

yet I know what it’s like to drink 2 shots of whiskey and then drink two bottles of wine.

Whiskey burns,trust me,when you drink it your throat hurts,yet oh well.

Whiskey to me is best drunk with coca cola.

That way you can enjoy yourself while you get buzzed,

yet do so at home.

Another thing I am not telling people to drink,

yet if you do decide to drink do it at home and don’t drive.