I love being alive,yet I hate life

I love being alive and I love the source of me being alive

and that is God,yet I hate life.

I hate life not because it totally sucks.

Life can be great at times,yet seeing her away is depressing.

I keep on turning women down,local and global.

If they are hurt,so be it,so am I.

My friend claims her friends are better than everyone else

when they are not and that is arrogance.

She used to be humble,what happened?

All because she gets known does not make her better at all.

I miss her so much,yet I so miss what she did too.

I miss going on the internet and reading about how it was.

I miss it greatly.

That is all that I am gonna put on this post.

Till later maybe hope still exists for me and her somehow.